visitors since July '06.
Thank you for loving me.

Welcome to my blog! I am an 18-year-old female from Malaysia, currently studying in Canada. My online nickname is Rin or Sylkis. <3 I was born on the 8th of August, 1988, and my measurements are... Just kidding. xD
I believe in the one true God, Jesus. I'm 100% Chinese, 5th-generation Malaysian, and speak English, Malay & Cantonese fluently. I can understand smatterings of Japanese & French, and am currently learning Latin.
I'd like to rule the world, but I'll settle for being a singer & paedetrician. ^_^ I like to sing, write, read, play MMORPGs, play with Photoshop, post in forums, and write emails! (hinthint) Recently, I've fallen in love with Jazz. I hope to get more into it. I also like small, hard, unreadable text. =D

I have an email address (no FWDs please),
a private msn address (email to request),
a friendster account (addwith this),
a myspace account (addwith this),
a Gaiaonline account (Sylkis),
a Kokorobox account (Rin).

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Artistes: Gackt Camui, Utada Hikaru, Yuna Ito, Anna Tsuchiya, Mika Nakashima, Hinouchi Emi, m-flo, Kill Hannah, Mute Math
Current song: Baby Eyes [May J. ft. KEN-U]
PV: I Say Yeah! [Various]
Anime: NANA
TV Series: Hana Yori Dango 2
Manga: Merupuri: Marchen Prince
Status: in <3 with Michael
Movies: Narnia, Moon Child, Phantom of the Opera, Dirty Dancing 2, NANA, The Illusionist, Moulin Rouge
Books: Redeeming Love, Blue Like Jazz, The Athenian Murders, Till We Have Faces, The Screwtape Letters
Games: FF8, RO, DDR, Ez2Dancer, Para-para, Starcraft, DOTA, Puerto Rico
Colors: black, silver, blue, pink, white
Flowers: deep red roses, white lilies
Food: mochi, dark chocolate, rice, mushroom, squid, sushi, soba, shisamo, spinach, cheesecake, white grapes, crab, lobster, fruit jelly, raw egg

Rae . Dea . Daryl . Guo Zhang . Tee Yoong . Aaron . Kimmy . Jasmine . Su-Lyn . Dustin . Gray . Ras+Mel . Hooi Min . Hanif . Froggy . Sowmya . Brian . Bernard . Lester

Version: 04 - silk flowers
Image credit: Moi. <3
Time: 5-6 hours
Programs: Adobe Photoshop CS2, Macromedia Dreamweaver MX 2004
Brushes: Photoshop defaults.
Drive: Utada Hikaru's BLUE
Inspiration: So, winter approaches, and everything turns to white. This dream of darkness encapsulating the white as well as the haunting melody of BLUE by Hikki inspired this layout. Silk flowers are a symbol of the empty, fake, beauty I have achieved in my life; no matter how much have strived, they are but fake, never to become real. They are my treasures alone, for no one else can grasp their subtleties.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Mood: Thoughtful
Background Music: Michael Buble - Lost
I am beginning to realize how pointless "blogging" is unless you have something meaningful to say.
A ha ha ha ha....
I nominate Ahnaf for having the best memes and quizzes.
/steals

Instructions:
1. Go to Wikipedia and type in your birthday (month and day) in search.
2. Write down 3 events, 2 births, 1 holiday and tag 5 friends.
3. Pass this about !
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Events:
1938 - The building of Mauthausen concentration camp begins.
1967 - The Association of Southeast Asian Nations (ASEAN) is founded.
1968 - Jurō Wada successfully performs Japan's first heart transplant.

Births: (the first one sounded cool...)
1955 - Diddú (Sigrún Hjálmtýsdóttir), Icelandic soprano and songwriter
1969 - Faye Wong, Hong Kong singer and actress

The Holiday:(this was cute)
Taiwan: Father's Day. (In Mandarin, Ba Ba means father and 8-8, or August 8).

Inscribed at 11:47 p.m., while pondering my existence.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Mood: ROFL
Background Music: Miliyah Kato ft. Douzi-T - Better Days
Michael, here's another testament to your manly-manliness. Haha! Love you.

You Are Lacy Panties

You're one seductive chica, but you've also got a ton of class. You are like a pinup girl, with timeless beauty and sexiness. Men are afraid to talk to you, knowing they'll be addicted to your charm immediately. Only a true manly man, confident in himself, is your perfect match.

What Kind of Panties Are You?

Inscribed at 10:50 a.m., while pondering my existence.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Mood: Jetlagged
Background Music: Downhere - From Protest to Praise
I'm back in Malaysia. A lot of things transpired, and now I'm here for the next 3 years. If you want to know, take me out to lunch. Or dinner. Or dessert. =3 I'll be glad to share.
Very jetlagged, because of the new route I flew by (Malaysia -Taiwan - Vancouver and the same back). Nonstop, less-than-5-hour transits. Nice to have it fast and not do the whole collect luggage and stay a night thing, but tiring. Oh so tiring. I slept a lot on those flights...
I made a new layout image, will be making the small title images and putting it up. It's a change from the dark silk flower theme... It's cuter, and homemade. ^_^ Totally homemade, except for the fonts. Nighty-oh.

Inscribed at 12:58 a.m., while pondering my existence.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Mood: Amused
Background Music: THE BABYS - Shounen Knife
Oh lookit.
Your Brain is Purple Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.
What Color Is Your Brain?

Inscribed at 03:22 p.m., while pondering my existence.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Mood: Jittery
Background Music: KYO - dernière danse
French is such a pretty language... Unfortunately, unless you are a native speaker or highly talented, attempting to learn/speak it is hell. Asian tongues have a hard time because of how it sounds. =/
Why you ask? KYO, a French rock band, have captured my attention. I want to sing along, but also know I sound horribly accented when I sing in French. Hahaha... In the privacy of my room, I shall murder pronunciations... x__x
Caffeine (be it in coffee or tea) makes me jittery, but I sing like an angel (chewah, self praise) for the first 15 minutes of its effects... Then I get breathless and sound airy. New camera for youtube! Hoho. Must get to work on these long-delayed covers so I can swing back into the groove.
Alaska Airlines Visa issued by Bank of America, N.A. (USA) I miss swing dance madly. Those high-energy steps, coupled with the infectious, driving beat of swing dance music make for a great workout and fun time. How can you NOT love swing after learning how to dance? ^^ It's great, I tell you. All sorts of things you can do--feels so exciting.

Inscribed at 05:12 p.m., while pondering my existence.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Mood: Thoughtful
Background Music: Nobuo Uematsu - Loss of Me
Recently, I've been dropping by the Pastoral Care unit in Assunta Hospital and observing the work the sisters and volunteer caregivers do. It's quite the encouraging experience, and really, something all future health professionals should consider doing.
I've also been embarking on a reading spree, beginning with Francine Rivers' "Mark of the Lion" series (and also her "Lineage of Grace" series), presently completing "My Heart in His Hands", a memoir-y sort of book of an American missionary to Burma, Ann Judson, compiled by Sharon James. Whilst waiting for dad to be done work and send me home, I devoured about half the book. So many of Miss Judson's diary entries have touched on experiences I myself am going through, and on how her realization of her frailty and sinful nature have drawn her closer and closer to God.
That amount of ultimate trust is so painful, and so hard to attain, yet so beautiful in her eyes, it makes me cry to even think about how she was so self-sacrificing. It's like how God told Abraham "Get up and leave". I can't explain how difficult it feels to want to just follow Jesus and place no importance on worldly/personal desires. I don't know why I hold back, when I can see, hear, and read the experiences of others who have taken the path that I hesitate--but long to--place my feet upon. Do I want to please people, or do I want to please God and risk offending a thousand others?
This fear of the world is thoroughly unnecessary, yet it binds my heart, imprisons me to constraining what could be my unending and vibrant love for Jesus, whose sacrifice carries such weight--I cannot even fully comprehend it as of yet. My fear and trembling should only be when approaching God, my holy and wondrous God who knows all, sees all, and loves all.
How long will I continue to grumble at not having my aspirations fulfilled when true happiness lies just an arm's reach away, if I am willing to grasp it? Happiness in the world is relative, but happiness in God will last forever. The joy his voice and presence can give is more, much more than anything in this world can ever give. All we feel here is a miserable preview of the joy of physically walking beside/dwelling with God, as Adam and Eve did. And Enoch.
God give me the courage to tell others of him and live as Jesus did.

Inscribed at 04:25 p.m., while pondering my existence.

Friday, July 27, 2007

Mood: Sick
Background Music: Regina Spektor - Samson
A quiz borrowed from Ahnaf:

The sorting hat says that I belong in Hufflepuff!

Said Hufflepuff, "I'll teach the lot, and treat them just the same."

Hufflepuff students are friendly, fair-minded, modest, and hard-working. A well-known member was Cedric Digory, who represented Hogwarts in the most recent Triwizard Tournament.

Take the most scientific Harry Potter Quiz ever created.

Get Sorted Now!

I figured I would be in Hufflepuff. Not that spectacularly witty. Other scores were Gryffindor 69, Ravenclaw 78, Hufflepuff 90, Slytherin 45. I'm definitely not snakey.

Inscribed at 03:24 a.m., while pondering my existence.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Mood: Saddened
Background Music: Utada Hikaru - Be My Last
Yesterday. Brrr. On my youtube page, some dude left a message saying, "My asian sister come discuss how f***ed up white people are."
This saddens me intensely. I mean, hello, wake up, COME ON. Racism?? To fight what you perceive as racism???? Naturally I retorted that I had no interest in their "discussion" and asked them to leave me alone. The next day, more comments, and from this dude's supporters too, pop up on my youtube comments. I delete them. No use continuing the communication.
They called me confused by "white values". Really... =/ I didn't want to sink to their level... To me, there's no discussion about whether they're right or wrong. Badmouthing anyone for any matter is wrong, and racism being a form of badmouthing is the WORST sort because it's irrational.
What's sadder is that they believe fighting racism with racism will help the situation... -_- This depresses me to no end. In a world where we can clearly see the results of not understanding (or tolerating, for that matter) other cultures, it is surprising that mentalities such as this still exist.
It is not skin color that defines a culture's level of f***ed-up-ness; it is every individual's (im)maturity in their daily social interactions. Stereotypes do not help this understanding either. =/
I wonder if the world has a reset button.

Inscribed at 03:58 a.m., while pondering my existence.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Mood: Inclined towards romance
Background Music: Clazziquai - Sweety
The only reason why I maintain my friendster account is because of a certain someone. =/ Sometimes I question the usefulness of such websites such as myspace, friendster, facebook... It's just a way to "kaypoh" on your friends without actually asking them. Reduces communication. Reduces reality. Information does come cheaply nowadays.
Shyte happens...

Inscribed at 03:44 a.m., while pondering my existence.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Mood: Slightly distracted...
Background Music: Yuna Ito ft. Micro - Mahaloha
Wow. I need to, er, resurrect this again.
Seems like I do it every summer, only to have it die in the fall/winter. Pah. Maybe because I just have nothing to write about anymore. Maybe I could start actually sounding intelligent and ranting about politics instead of my insignificant life. CHILDREN ARE DYING IN AFRICA. =( I want to do something about it.

Inscribed at 04:11 a.m., while pondering my existence.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Mood: Suffering from Asian flush...
Background Music: Utada Hikaru - BLUE
SO I went to Leora's organ recital today. Holy crap, it was absolutely amazing! The pieces she played were full of emotion and expression. I loved it. I feel like a very inferior person musically whenever around the music department/students at TKUC.
We went out afterward to the Sugar Bowl, and I had a Long Island Ice Tea. And discovered that I have Asian flush--the ability to NOT metabolize alcohol...
And now, a quiz I stole from Rae's blog~

What does your drawing say about YOU?
You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously. When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much.
You have a peaceful mind, viewing the world with calm and serenity. To you, life is not about struggle and strife but about existence and co-existence.
You like following the rules and being objective. You are precise and meticulous, and like to evaluate decisions before making them.
You have a sunny, cheerful disposition.

Inscribed at 02:50 p.m., while pondering my existence.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Mood: Braindead
Background Music: Hy - NAO
Am writing finals now. Sorry for being lazy and not updating; a new layout is in the works. Mmm finals... So tired. Can't wait to be done.

Inscribed at 05:03 a.m., while pondering my existence.